"And, Baby, It's amazing I'm in this maze with you

I just can't crack your code

One day, you're screaming you love me loud

The next day, you're so cold

One day, you here, one day you there, one day you care

You're so unfair"

 

I know it was my fault. I shouldn't have said those lines when I am with you. But, I don't know it suddenly came out of my mouth. And I felt so guilt for saying those words.

And I don't wanna look back. I swear to God.

I'm a soldier who's returning half her weight. I need time to fix everything. 

I just don't want my previous problems would affect my life now. I'm living in present and trying to reach my future with someone who I really love now.

I admit that I'm such a mess. I hurt myself for hurting someone who I love the most. 

But, I really love him. God, am I wrong?

I'll take all your insecurity, all the dirty laundry. I'll take your bad day with your good. Gosh, I really love him.. unconditionally. 

Please throw away all the fear, let go and just be free. This relationship is just between two of us. No space for other thing. 

Let my past be my past, and also yours.