You ever said that you can't tell all the problems to other people, even to your partner. Well, is it you against the world or us against the world?

Disappointed but not surprised

What kind of a game are we playing? I kinda don't like it.

I'm offended, for those words. I swear, there's no man that ever talk to me like that before. I just need someone to talk, is it too much?

I know I'm so fuckin busy for 8 to 5, but gosh I'm trying so hard to make a time to reach you, to tell you what I am really going thru. 

I never refuse if you need me to hear your story, gosh.. I'm your loyal listener. Even tho sometimes I need time to process every sentences, but... I swear, listening to your story is so addicted.

I know I'm bad at words, and I already told you that. But, I just want to be heard, you don't have to react to my words.

Sometimes I feel that... maybe... I'm not your type --  because I'm bad at communication. Sometimes I feel I'm not worth for you.

Maybe I'm out of your expectation.

Maybe... I'm not better than the other girls that you ever with.

You said that you really hate it when it came to my ex's, but funny thing... you told me about your previous one had her lashes curled and you said it was cute. Well....

You said that you don't want me to repeat every activity that I ever did to my ex's, but can you guarantee that you don't do the same thing too? Is the jokes that you ever told me is the genuine joke? Or is it re-used? 

I don't have a perfect hair.

I don't do my make up.

I got too much acne scars on my face.

I am not perfect.

"And, Baby, It's amazing I'm in this maze with you

I just can't crack your code

One day, you're screaming you love me loud

The next day, you're so cold

One day, you here, one day you there, one day you care

You're so unfair"

 

I know it was my fault. I shouldn't have said those lines when I am with you. But, I don't know it suddenly came out of my mouth. And I felt so guilt for saying those words.

And I don't wanna look back. I swear to God.

I'm a soldier who's returning half her weight. I need time to fix everything. 

I just don't want my previous problems would affect my life now. I'm living in present and trying to reach my future with someone who I really love now.

I admit that I'm such a mess. I hurt myself for hurting someone who I love the most. 

But, I really love him. God, am I wrong?

I'll take all your insecurity, all the dirty laundry. I'll take your bad day with your good. Gosh, I really love him.. unconditionally. 

Please throw away all the fear, let go and just be free. This relationship is just between two of us. No space for other thing. 

Let my past be my past, and also yours.